Good Morning!
For whatever reason, good, sound sleep has been eluding me for several weeks. I tried Melatonin last eve and it did get me 6 and a half hours before waking at 4:30AM. Obviously, I also got to bed earlier than I have been.
Rising an hour later, I wandered to the computer for a short send and found the internet down. Personally, i think my Gurus may have done that. I got to watch myself adjust to no computer and instead complete my pre-sadhana exercises.
I have been noticing a level of stress even while meditating???? I believe it relates to the lack of sleep. This morning, however, in the dome, I finally reached the state of peace I have come to expect from sadhana. Thank God.
Our society breeds restlessness. We are surrounded by doing, acting, achieving, completing. My God....where IS peace? My temple visits are no longer a "choice" they are ESSENTIAL. No matter how little I have slept, I would rather be there with the environment and support of other meditators. I may not be going as deep of late, yet I am still going.... The alternative is absolutely unpalatable.
I ended up making 4 trips to downtown Encinitas yesterday: meditation/Sunday service, yoga, Master's Hermitage and gardens, and the Temple Gita Meditation. Doing the footwork will eventually lead me to Destination Home. Sometimes, like lately, it seems a far piece. Yet...there is no other Way to go.
I spoke to a couple of very dear grads yesterday. Both had been given HUGE wake-up calls as to the Purpose of their Life. Death and Loss can do that. I am trusting they have both heard The Call and are now ardently pursuing the ONE thing that gives everlasting Peace: The ONE.
At this moment I am experiencing the Peace of this morning's foray to the Dome. I am savoring it. I had taken it for granted....I choose not to do so again.
I CAN live my life without one external perk....it would not give ego much balm, yet it IS do-able. What is not expendable is my inner experience of Connection. Without that, life becomes drab and meaningless. A real chore.
I have prayed more than once today to keep my God and my Gurus in my thoughts and in my Heart during my day's activities. Knowing Them there, feeling Their Loving Presence, will assist me to Stay Connected.
If you are not, in this moment, experiencing your Divine Birthright of Peace and Joy, may I suggest you do the same? If we each can Stay Connected, we will surely be conduits for other Dear Ones, and strangers (there are none) to do the same.
Loving you always, k
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