Good Morning!
I have had blogs in my heart and head AND the days have been slipping away. And you know what? I am better when I blog....reaching out to the God in you from the God in me. I choose our FREEDOM from our self-imposed amnesia and blogging assists me to REMEMBER. I won't write when there is an empty canvas and when there IS something to share, I intend to do better at sitting down and getting it out to you.
I have been struggling with anger, hurt, and pain...all from deep inside. Age-old, I believe, and yet watered by certain hurtful events in my childhood, triggered by certain current events "out there". This has NOTHING to do with anything external...those things just nick a hole in the ego-armour and let what's inside ooze out. Ultimately, there IS nothing "out-there", it ALL is created by my ego's attachment to the material world, the senses, to it's thwarted desires and mistaken perception of "Reality".
So, yesterday my ego was really on a "Toot". I stumbled, eyes glazed, into the Dome to do what repair work I could. I little thought I would be able to meditate enough to do any good whatsoever! Still, I am committed to my twice-daily forays against the slings and arrows of ego-domination and just living in the material world. I also recalled what each of my Gurus has said to do when overcome with life's challenges and troubles. One-word advice:MEDITATE!
I bumped through my Hong Sau and Aum techniques and then began Kriya. For those of you that have this Magic Key to Liberation....I garnered a real "plum" of advice at Convocation this summer that has really changed-up my practice (Thank God!) At the Kriya Review class, the minister said that if we catch ourselves "thinking"...mind-wandering, during a Kriya we can REPEAT that Kriya and do so with concentration. We can't repeat the whole thought-damned string, but the one we "caught" ourselves on...YES!
Wow....WHAT A DIFFERENCE SUCH ADVICE HAS MADE!!
Anyway, thanks to that blessed tip, I went deeper and deeper in my practice yesterday, when I first thought I could barely manage to do a couple sets, given my angst and restlessness.
IT CHANGED EVERYTHING!!!
Blessed meditation! It took me into that internal REALITY where I could SEE that all that was "bringing me down" was utter nonsense and completely UNREAL. I came into that sacred space of PEACE. LOVE, and absolute SOLACE. I experienced the UNCONDITIONAL Love of my God and my Gurus and my Saints (and my Hidden Helpers).
All was well again. Meditation brings one back to one's TRUE SELF. Our SOULS, who we REALLY are, are brimming with Divine Love and Joy. When a part of our soul becomes attached to the play of the senses, and the constant flux of UP and DOWN in the material world, it creates "ego" and we get all cloudy and covered with ignorance....ignorance of our Divine origins and inheritance as Children of the ONE.
"GET AWAY FROM MY OCEAN OF SUFFERING, O ARJUNA". Krishna thus spake to Arjuna to assist him to wake-up from the delusion of this world. We, too, must CONSTANTLY REMEMBER such advice!!
Meditation is surely, if not the only, one of the best, ways to REMEMBER.
When "boisterous storms of trials shriek" and "worries howl at you", "drown their voices, loudly chanting GOD, GOD, GOD."
If this reminder assists even one of you struggling in this mire of delusion, my day has been successful!
Loving you always, k
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