Good Day!
Choosing to say I REALLY know there were miracles happening on GP day....when I sat to meditate the next morning my mind was the same ol', same ol'....rife with thoughts, etc. It was really so sweet to have it all put on "standby" for Guru Purnima. Thanks GREAT ONES!
Still, I have residual JOY from the experience....and our Inshallah Work Weekend rolled along happily and seamlessly. I woke up this morning in Joy until I got some news I have been worrying about...and the chips did not fall the way I had hoped.
I watched my ego take a heavy hit in the heart and tears well up and roll down my cheeks. Dennis was not a happy camper either and of course, much less emotional. Still I trudged out to the Dome and did my due. Some interesting thoughts were forming in my mind as well.
I have to admit I was pretty quick to see that when my mind went on a certain track the pain in my heart magnified greatly. I caught that and said "STOP. How do I KNOW the results of this turn of events? I have no idea where this might end up!"
And you know...miracle of miracles, I DID stop thinking in that direction. Instead some other thoughts came in that made the dreaded outcome much more understandable...and even quite perfect, in some ways.
I went inside and waited for more of the heart crunch....and you know, it never came!!
I recalled that I had had a deep intuitive experience about this situation at Guru Purnima. It was a gift to assist me to see the rightness of this outcome.
In fact, within a couple of hours I was absolutely bubbling over with JOY! I couldn't believe it...I still can't. What IS happening here? I can only guess it is some doing of my Great Ones...and that They are giving me this unusual denouement for some wonderful reason.
The experience today could not have had better timing. I was centered, prepared, still saturated with all that came with 24 hours of God. I notice my Gurus often bless with me with the very best schedule for difficult experiences.
Each aspect has fallen into place and I truly KNOW all is for the best! I especially feel that way for myself...yet I also feel that way for others involved.
I am not a risk taker when it comes to my Spiritual Life...I would never vote for something that might have the possibility of lessening my Connection. Yet, I cannot make that call for others....and I don't even choose to.
I have noticed that I am more likely to remember that I don't know somebody else's Life Purpose....I am happy that I know my own. My compass points to G-O-D and all other comparisons stop there. When it comes to other, perhaps competing, pulls, as wonderful Brett said in Gone with the Wind, "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."
I don't....I just choose God again, again, again. My deepest desire for anyone else is to do the same WHEN it's time for them to do so. Til then....could be more pain, up and down, AND I honor their freedom TO CHOOSE.
I am content...even HAPPY. I have my God, my Gurus, and my life which supports my one-pointed direction toward HOME. I care about each brother/sister Soul and deeply desire their Liberation as well. It will happen....in their own good time. I can wait. I am patient. God has been and continues to be just as patient with me.
HALLELUJAH!
Loving you always, k
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