Source Seminars

Living unattached

Good Morning!

I was nearing the end of three hours of sitting meditation this morning.  I had marshaled my mind and senses better than average so my concentration in doing my techniques was improved.  The litmus test was the light, color and form I may or may not see when I did the technique for seeing the Spiritual Eye. 

As I sat there expectantly, I received what I usually do...meager "results" in the light/color/form department.  Instantly, I reminded myself that it was NOT about results.  My only job is to do the best I can.  The results, whatever they may be or not be, are purely up to the ONE.

Why is it so?  The EGO is the one seeking results, rewards, a pat on the back.  The EGO is also what stands between me and the Realization of my own perfect Divinity.  Having 'results' might well encourage and grow Ms. Ego...the opposite effect of what meditation is designed to do.

The purpose of meditation is to detach us from our egos and from the sense world and it's external charms.  Beneath the ego sea is a place of great joy and bliss...the place where the soul is fully realized.  The outer world is but a "dim, sensory mirage" as Yogananda named it in His incredible "Samadhi" poem.  Underneath is the Cosmic Sea watching the little ego floating within it.

Reflecting upon all this, I sense the incredible FREEDOM of one who lives in the moment, with no eye on results, just the flat-out desire and direction to "do" as perfectly as one can as the role unfolds.

I know when I experience my full attention and consciousness on the task at hand, while staying Connected to a loving rapport with my Beloved, I am exceedingly happy and beyond content.  Each little act is an offering from my heart...and I know it is my surrender and love the ONE savors, not how it "turns out".

Is it not amusing how we permit our egos, so small and insignificant, to push us around?  Even more strange is that we allow other egos to determine the state of our minds and hearts by being attached to their judgments, actions, approval or lack thereof.

Today I offer to you and I an opportunity to cast off these age-old shackles and EN-JOY ourselves "doing" for and within the LOVE of GOD! (and without thought of results.)

Methinks it will be quite a different day, quite an unusual experience.  Let's do it!!

Loving you always, k

 

Establishing Peace and Harmony

Good Sunday Morning!

Choosing to mention more about the Bulgarian training today.  One of the things each of us did the whole training (and some of us are no doubt continuing) is practice of The Peace and Harmony Prayer.  I have referred to this a few times in the blog AND if you are like me, you may well have forgotten about this amazing resource.

One of the beauties of a Core IV training is that we can practice whatever is on the agenda for two full weeks.  This allows at least some of the curriculum to become habitual.  Such has it been for me with this prayer.  I have continued to repeat it as directed.  I am using it for two different people who are involved in my life to a greater or lesser extent currently.

While on the trip, one of my two choices was our driver.  We had "words" the first night in Bulgaria and things weren't looking so good for future interaction.  The old "oil and water" adage definitely could be applied.

I was faithful and intent and watched how things gradually mellowed out between us.  The way the prayer works (it is used on the selected party and then turned and used on oneself) has a positive modifying on effect on oneself as well!

Interestingly, it was on this same driver upon which I was totally dependent once I had become injured.  He gallantly carried me up and down multiple flights of stairs, across streets, everywhere, until finally depositing me in the airport wheelchair. 

We laughed and joked about how close we had become, at least physically, and both of us knew that our mutual Master had played a joke on us!

I can only say that if I had NOT employed The Peace and Harmony Prayer, which had done it's phenomenal work in softening the edge between us, we both would have been most uncomfortable and ill-at-ease in this final denouement of our trip relationship.  Thank God and Guru for the happy circumstance that led to my practice of this prayer for he and I!

This if the recipe published last year in the blog:

The Method of the Prayer:

Visualize the individual with whom you are experiencing conflict/disharmony at your Spritual Eye, surrounded in Great Light.  For one minute repeat "(Name) is filled with Peace and Harmony." You may also say "Peace and Harmony fill (name)" during that minute as well.  Keep the strong visualization of them at your Eye receiving the powerful effects of this prayer...bathed in Great Light.

Then see yourself in the Great Light of the Spiritual Eye, receiving just as above.  State "I am filled with Peace and Harmony" and "Peace and Harmony fill me" for 15 seconds.

Repeat this at least 5 times daily.

I was in the last minute rush of packing when I received a slightly different instruction from a Source grad.  I have been using this formula: "Lord, fill _______ with peace and harmony, peace and harmony, peace and harmony."  If I repeat that 15 times or so it is equivalent to about a minute.  I then say "Lord, fill me with peace and harmony, peace and harmony, peace and harmony" 4 times or so which takes about 15 seconds.

If you have anyone in your life with whom you are choosing greater harmony, greater flow, I suggest you get going on this practice immediately.

My intention is to keep on until the issues/edges have vanished or the person is no longer a significant part of my life.

 Loving you always, k

 

Timing and Gratitude

Good Morning!

I continue to awaken very early and get in substantial sadhana.  I admit my evening meditation is brief as I am overcome with sleepiness.  I must still be on Bulgarian time!  Still, I would rather have these unbroken hours in the morning...I must endeavor to work out this evening nod-out!

I never shared with you that I was injured near the end of our Bulgarian training.  The timing was impeccable!  When one has karma for such things, it is sure wonderful how the Guru arranges the details to be as good as they can, under the circumstances.

We were climbing a fairly high peak up in the Seven Lakes of Rila region.  The views were spectacular and at the end of a few hours, where we were hiking was snow-covered.  Looking down on the last frozen lake, I could hardly believe we had all made it up there.  It felt like we were hiking in the High Himalayas, Alaska, or some other year-round snow place.

It was rather treacherous going on the return with extremely steep trails...ha!  What trails?  More like a snow track wherein one's boots (if one was lucky enough to have worn such) would sink right down into the snow.  It was here that I slipped and fell in a sharp twist, freaking out my right knee.  I heard a pop-pop-pop inside the knee and knew things weren't good.

I still marvel that I was able to walk back...miles.  I was limping badly AND I made it somehow.  The next morning my leg was so bad it was impossible to stand on it.  It was hop-hop-hop, or piggy-backing on our extremely muscular guide from then on out.  At the airports, it was wheelchairing all the way home.

I KNEW that my Guru had got me down off that mountain.  There is just no other explanation.  I was able to use one of His healing techniques several times as well.

This story came to mind just as I was rising from this morning's meditation.  My knee is still amazingly sore and stiff.  I am just so grateful to have made it home as easily as I did.

When reviewing the circumstances I can see the hand of my Master so clearly.  The injury happened at almost the end of the training...there were very few plans yet to execute.  It would have been incredibly difficult and detrimental to myself and others if it had happened much earlier.  He got me off that mountain...and then the injury manifested to the full extent.  I was given red-carpet treatment at the airport...at one juncture I believe our group would have missed our connection had not we been moved to the head of the line because of my wheelchair.  I was able to do far more healing work on my injury because I was in airports and airplanes for hours.

I have heard multiple times that your Guru/Master/Spiritual Teacher handles the "timing".  This experience was rife with indice of that!  I also intuitively feel this injury should have been much worse.  Gurus often take on much of one's karma...and greatly soften 'the blow'.  Yes...I believe that.

Again and again, we have huge reason for Gratitude if we but keep our eyes open and stay aware.  

Loving you always, k

The RIGHT way to look at WRONG turns!

Good Morning!

I hopped out of bed at 3:30AM sure that the clock read FIVE-thirty.  Haha...it was a welcome surprise when I realized I was 2 hours ahead of myself.  I just LOVE getting my sadhana and affirmations and Good Mornings complete when the fraud world is still sleeping.  It's not 8 o'clock yet and I feel like I have got the day off to a good start already!

I am choosing to write of a wise way to hold and consider our "poor choices" or stumbles...which most of us definitely still have coming into our lives to a greater or lesser degree (a lot depending on the amount of meditation we are getting in, methinks.  Meditation leads to deepening intuition which leads to attunement with the Cosmic Flow and thus, Divine Order.)

I am really choosing to hold these simply as LEARNING.  We can learn the easy way, from OTHER'S poor decisions, or the hard way, from our OWN.  Still...if we hold these errors in judgment or action as providing information or experience so we can choose more wisely (read less painfully) the next time we have the opportunity to choose....we are EDUCATING ourselves. 

I do not see any positive in beating ourselves up, scolding ourselves, or feeling "sinful" or even "guilty". Hopelessness or victimization won't assist either!  So...we screwed up.  Of course, if apologies are in order, we should make them!  If it is the humble and proper thing to do, we should also ask for forgiveness.  Beyond that, MOVE ON, I say, with more wisdom in our pockets.

My beautiful daughter is currently in Europe, traveling around as she learns more and more about her own boundaries, who she is, and what she has come on Earth to do (beyond Realization of her Oneness with God, of course.)  I was skyping with her yesterday and stated much of what I just said here.  She may make some incorrect choices or wrong turns during these months...it happens.  AND as long as she GROWS and LEARNS from these "interesting" choices, so what?  She is attuning herself deeply with her Guru, and so frankly, she probably won't have too many wrong turns.  Yet, if she does, she can pick herself up, dust herself off, and KEEP ON KEEPING ON, wiser, smarter, and more Aware.

Another dear one, daughter of a most beloved friend, just went through a horrendous break-up.  At the moment, no doubt, there is immense emotional pain with which to deal.  Yet, rather than focus on that, she has already determined to end the cycle of wrong choices in the man department by attending the next Source Journey.  She is using this unfortunate experience as a prod to Remembrance to change herself and create better circumstances in future!

One of the most enlightening aspects of our recent Bulgarian adventure was the discoverey of this passage in my Master's Lessons:

"Keep your concentration on the blissful after-effects of meditation every minute of your existence, and do not neutralize that peace with disturbing thoughts."

Boy, that statement has assisted me incredibly.  Pretty quickly now, I notice if I am having "disturbing thoughts".  As soon as I do, I STOP.  Mentally or vocally identifying the bliss-breaker as a DISTURBING THOUGHT, I quickly turn my mind onto one of the blazingly blissful,  or powerful, or wise affirmations I have been committing to memory.  They push that sucker right out of my mind....and replace it with the 100 Proof Words of One who is ONE with the ONE!

Intuitively I KNOW there is somebody out there who required this particular piece today.  Hey...we ALL make mistakes.  SO WHAT!  Just keep your eye on the PRIZE.  A saint is a sinner who never gave up!!!

Loving you always, k

Back from Bulgaria

Good Morning!

It is GREAT to be back in the good ol' USA.  I take so much for granted in my living in this amazing country, and moreover, in the sacred and incredibly beautiful ocean town of Encinitas.  Bulgaria IS beautiful and the spiritual and nature places we visited were lovely.  That being said, there is just no place like Home (Home on the physical...certainly not the end HOME.)

The training itself was one of the most powerful Dennis and I have ever experienced.  For sure, it was one of the most spiritually-connected, spiritually-transforming trainings of our lives.  The double whammy is that it packed a real wallop in emotional/character growth for several of us as well.  Two-fisted, and worth every Punch!!

We really seeded in some deep habits and that was the theme of this training.  We always do 4 hours of daily meditation in Core IV trainings AND the way it was arranged this time really makes it easier for me to keep on keeping on with that.  I LOVE the very early-rising that returning to this time zone offers when I have been sleeping in another.  I am waking up so early...getting in an hour of affirmations right out of the gate, before commencing with the other aspects of my daily sadhana.  Whoo-hoo!  I just wish I could stay on this middle-of-the-night wake-up permanently...and still function effectively in PST.

I am becoming a fiend for memorizing affirmations and prayers out of the likes of Metaphysical Meditations and Scientific Healing Affirmations.  I am inebriated before I even roll out of bed!  I love my mind rolling around with the deep, soul-stirring, bad-habit-breaking thoughts of One anchored in pure Divinity!  Here is a great one our Bulgarian guide (also a Kriyaban) offered up: Thou art my Father, Thou hast no karma!  I am Thy Child, I have no karma, now and forever!  Put that in your 'pipe' and you will be smokin'!

Another habit that we happily added to our new, post-training lives: doing ALL three of our SRF meditation techniques at both morning and evening meditations.  I do the maximum amount of daily Kriyas and had usually not done this because of the time the former took.  Not anymore....and the additions are SOOO worth it!

I will write more tomorrow of some delicious effects of this wondrous adventure in Consciousness from whence we just returned.  I missed you.

Loving you always, k