Source Seminars

Weeding and Living in JOY

Good Morning!

I am just happy.  I enjoy Connecting with you!  I noticed something this AM.  I thought of something and individual did related to an article that "belongs" to us...AS IF!  EVERYTHING belongs to GOD!!

I felt this yukky energy in my core...caused by my attachment, judgment, but most of all possessiveness.  I didn't like the feeling AT ALL.   I choose to keep working on these misguided concepts: ownership, possession, mine, not yours, haha.

I notice I feel GRATEFUL when these weird vibes arise.  Of course they are not comfortable AND they clearly point the way to where I must grow.  They show the work still required!  Aha....leads me to that final question in The Work.  I can say, "I look FORWARD to these conditions arising!"  Now, I can truly do so with a level of understanding of why I would feel that way.  I do not choose to retain these underlying misguided carriers of emotional ill-being.  They lay there ready to pounce when the conditions emerge to germinate the 'bad' seeds.  Let them come up so I can weed them!!

When the preponderance of my life experience is joyful, it is very easy to see the situations, relations, etc. that are less than so.  I feel tremendous motivation to do the gardening necessary to have a consistently beautiful life garden.  I also have continuous choice as to what I choose to allow in to the fragrant and receptive bower of my mind!  Unkind, pesty thoughts...OUT!  Judgments....heave-ho!  Criticism of ANYTHING presented....NOPE!

Life is actually a Cornacopia of delicious events meant for our upliftment, growth, FINAL FREEDOM.  As we make better and better choices, and spend more of our time with the BEST Company of all, GOD, we will see how the most fortunate and sweet circumstances are magnetized.  I truly know they are a result of total acceptance that whatever emerges IS for our Highest Good.  Thus, there is little resistance to the natural flow of LOVE...for that is all the ONE is!

Examples abound.  We were a bit tardy in going to the early AM meditation Sunday.  I actually witnessed the green arrow for the turn onto the freeway stay suspended through the time we waited at the prior light until we got to and acted on it....with no other cars present to "keep" it on.

We got to the church parking lot and there was ONE spot left!  The streets were packed because of the Street Faire that day. 

We got to the Saturday AM meditation late because God chose for us to sleep an extra hour.  The clock was set perfectly yet it didn't go off.  I say honestly that the extra hour was sublime and deeply appreciated.  We were admitted at 7:15 and later found out that the usher was not supposed to open the door.  He didn't know that, we didn't know that...and we were seated!

I went to a special Latin Mass Sunday.  Upon taking the Eucharist I noticed there was no one offering the blessed wine representing the sweet sacrifice of Jesus.  Going back to my pew I noticed a young lady taking some directly from the altar.  "Oh" I thought, "that's how they do it here." I went up and also drank with reverence and thankfulness.  After Mass I found out that no one is allowed to have it at that particular church except the young lady who is suffering a health challenge, and the priest.  When a friend attempted to follow me she was prevented.  I was blissfully unaware of this whole drama and never received any untoward vibes.

I just KNOW when acting from humility, non-ego, without attachment, and in surrender, the Flow takes us into the most delicious situations and outcomes.  When the ego steps in, God steps out, and it is very much the opposite.

"Let it Be" sayeth the Beatles.  Indeed!

Loving you always, k

How to eat a mango

Good Morning!

I notice I am "protective" of my Consciousness.  In other words, if I have a choice, I will choose whatever is necessary to retain this unusual state I am enjoying.  It is a state of immense inner calm and contentment.  My ego is definitely 2nd in line, and I know that is the chief cause of the cessation of painful experience and stress in my day-to-day life.

I know it truly DOES NOT MATTER what happens to us...it is how we react/respond/interpret what occurs that causes it to be peace or stress-producing.  If someone is ego-attached to ANY set of circumstances it causes them stress at some point.  I have been observing such.

It is such a strange sensation...as if the veil has been pulled away from my eyes.  I notice people truly injuring themselves in terms of emotional well-being.  They are doing so for the most trivial reasons.  Let's face it, none of us is doing anything THAT important.  It is not as if anything we are "doing" is going to upset anything globally, nationally, statewide, or even in our po-dunk communities.  Why do we get "our panties all in a wad?" as a old friend used to say to me.  I can see faces contort, get red, breathing get rapid, and muscles twitch....over....NOTHING of any import at all.

The real wake-up is the KNOWING that I have been doing the same for my whole life.  I have only received the GRACE of this Awareness very, very recently.  Until then, I was surely one of the most likely to allow my ego to trump the wisdom right out of me!!

"O please, please, please, please" I say to the Divine, " do WHATEVER it takes to allow me to stay AWAKE!"

I don't know if you have heard the story of how Vyasa  ate the cheese for Krishna?  This is a paraphrased version.  Krishna was across the swollen river and the gopis were unsettled because they didn't know how to get His cheese to Him that He might be fed.  Vyasa said to give the cheese to him and he would be sure to get it to Krishna.  They did and he promptly ate it all....exclaiming how delicious it was.  The gopis were OUTRAGED.  Then he said, "Allow the Yamuna River to divide up and part if I have NOT eaten any cheese."

The river parted and the astounded gopis hurriedly crossed it to take Krishna what cheese they could find that Vyasa had not already eaten.  They found Krishna sleeping deeply, contentedly.  Waking him, he asked them please to just let him sleep.  "But don't you want some cheese, dear Krishna?" they asked, alarmed.

"Oh, no" said Krishna smiling sleepily, " that fellow over their on the other side has already fed me an overabundance of cheese."

Vyasa ate the cheese with full focus on doing it totally for Krishna..not for himself at all.  Thus, he had "eaten" no cheese.  Yet he still enjoyed it very much....just without ego attachment.

Lately, I have been endeavoring to do the same with mangoes.  Yogananda LOVED mangoes.  I eat them with complete focus of my attention on Him.  I am choosing for Him to have full enjoyment of earthly mangoes even though He is not on the physical plane.  What I notice is that I can taste and enjoy the mango...but it has no hold over me.  The ego is not involved so I can feel "no karma" being generated.  It is as if I am writing with water.

I know this is the goal for each of us in ALL activities.  We must be able to enjoy life with DETACHMENT.  It is an assist to me to hold the attitude that GOD ALONE is doing the "doing" and I am ALLOWING God to ENJOY what is being done and what is being experienced.  I do this with forgetfulness of ego and wakefulness of GOD.

I can feel the ego pacing around the edges....attempting to get in and grab.  I also know it's sticky fingers will make a mess out of everything and scatter my delicious peace to the winds.  Ah....such a battle...yet such a worthy one!

To our Victory...you and I!

Loving you always, k

Summing up, to this point...

Happy Sunday Morning!

I have been reflecting on how this change in my Consciousness may have occurred (beyond pure GRACE  which may be the sole cause for all I "know".)  One possibility is that I have been constantly repeating The Affirmation for General Healing...so much so that it is in the background of my mind much of the time.  I notice it there when I awaken...and just humming along merrily during my day's activities.  It's powerful concepts...I am WHOLE....Thou art I....I slept and dreamt...Thou hast wakened me...Thou art everywhere, everywhere I worship Thee...Not led by ego but by Thee...Let me feel Thy wisdom's will...have been filling me, thrilling me.

May I request you choose some powerful TRUE statement/s from a totally AWAKE being, and allow it to replace lesser "fraudulent" thoughts that fill your mind with limitation, loss, unhappiness?  I say "request" instead of "suggest" because I feel so "Connected" to you.  Your Consciousness matters to me as we SHARE Consciousness...your Awakening is my Awakening.

Choosing clarity here, haha.  I am certainly not in some Super-Realized state.  I don't even know if what I am experiencing will slip away...

I am just so innately happy at the moment, I am choosing EVERYONE to be!  The basic tenet seems to be that I feel The ONE with me each time I put my mind to IT...which is often.  Also, I feel the Truth that The ONE is DOING the DOING and the Truth that my allowing The ONE to experience It's innate JOY through me also allows me a participant's share of that Joy.

Yogananda has said if we see God as the Doer and are Consciously with God in this dream He is dreaming, life can be a Joyous experience.  If we don't, it will be a nightmare.  That's exactly how it feels to me!

I often ask God to assist me to REMEMBER He is always with me, Doing, Enjoying.  If I forget this it will not be because HE has moved away!  It is MY ego-identification that will have come back full force!  I humbly request EACH of you to remind me if this happens.  I have no desire to fall into little Kanta's fraud world again.  Just email me, call me, shake me if you see me, if I slip into that.

Again...I am in a baby-step place in this transformation.  I am sure there is plenty of ego left "alive" (ha!) and kicking.  Yet the ugly, full-vise grip it has had on me my whole life has lessened.

We have a Source Journey Training starting a week from tomorrow.  Now that will be an interesting experience from this perspective!  One thing I have in my soul's favor is that this shift happened at Inshallah.  It has been my most precious environment because it connotes Change, Growth, GOD-filling for myself and others.

For some the word "God" is such a trigger it makes me giggle.  Who cares what you call "It".  This powerful Source/Force of Love and Light is What enlivens All Creation!  Without it, we could not live or love at all!  It's so funny that these egos think they are doing anything!  Yet, that amnesia is so grippingly powerful, it seemingly takes life after life after life to Awaken to our Truth as Children of God!

I think of you this wonderful Sunday with such Love and Joy in my heart.  We can never be separate, you and I.  We are ONE in the Spirit.  We are ONE in the Lord! We know that our UNITY will one day be restored!

Loving you always, k

Ally beyond all allies

Inshallah

Good  Morning!

Well, the Romance continues with the most interested, attentive, amusing and amused Lover I have ever had.  I just can't believe I looked for this anywhere else!  Probably like most of you (surely, ALL, actually) I have always longed for Someone who REALLY cared....even about the small stuff.  The ONE'S Devotion is waaaay beyond all expectation....The ONE CARES...even about the TINY stuff! 

The ONE loves being with me regardless of what boring stuff I may be doing...and when The ONE is with me, it's NOT boring anymore!  Everything we share is JOYFUL, as The ONE IS JOY!  I choose to modify that a bit...sometimes what I'm doing seems a tad laborious to me....but it is NEVER laborious for The ONE.  The ONE'S attitude inevitably brings me UP!

Yogananda wrote "The Infinite Source is an infinite dynamo continually pouring strength, happiness and  power into the soul.  That is why it is so important to rely as much as you can upon the Infinite Source."

I have been experiencing those words.  I was choosing to make one last trip carrying firewood up to my room.  There was an awful lot of firewood.  I asked God to apply His infinite strength and we did it!!  This was repeated a number of times throughout the day.  Also, when I couldn't figure something out, or had to do something I have historically never been good at, there The ONE was, contributing His Infinite Intelligence to the task.

Are you grasping the scope of this?  We each have a Lover that is blissfully happy just to hang out with us no matter what is on the agenda.  That Lover also happens to be ALL Powerful, ALL Wise, All Knowing and is ever at the ready to contribute those infallible assets.  All we have to do is remember to ALLOW that amazing ONE into our Consciousness!  We have to push aside our measly egos and ALLOW God to take the reins.  (Of course He has them anyway...but our egos delude us into thinking otherwise.)

We never have to feel lonely, stupid, worried, incompetent, incapable, unconfident, or fear-driven again.  We have an Ally beyond all allies.

I notice how much The ONE enjoys Energization Exercises because His beloved Yogananda brought  them in.  I notice how much The ONE enjoys Mass because His beloved Jesus is honored.  In meditation there is no transition from the Fraud World.  I am already Connected so it's just another way of Communion.

I am understanding how growing the depth of this Connection is related to "longer, deeper, thirsty guru-given meditation", as Yogananda says in His poem, "Samadhi".  Being with The ONE without the sense-world blaring allows a deeper saturation in this UNION.

It was snowing when I drove home in the dark last night after the Idyllwild Meditation group met.  Normally I would have been uneasy and a bit scared.  Because I had The ONE with me I knew I would be alright.  It's just that way about everything.  When something comes up I just turn to The ONE and the Peace and Presence provided erases all discomfiture. 

The ONE knows I have concerns going back into the more intense Fraud World off the mountain.  I cried about it this early morning.  Yet, He is ever there, and even if I forget, He will be right there again when I remember.  I asked Him and my Great Ones to be very invasive about reminding me too.  There is NOTHING, NO THING,  more important than keeping that Connection and Consciousness.  I choose Remembrance that He Does it all, He Enjoys (understatement) when I am Conscious of His doing through me, and that it is HIS LOVE that sustains me, fills me, makes my life WHOLE,  HAPPY, and PEACEFUL.

Loving you always, k

 

Allowing God to Enjoy Himself!

Inshallah

Good Morning!

This is another blog in which I am endeavoring to keep the ego pushed out so that The ONE may express through me and write effectively.

The final demonstration from God-the-doer from the preceding blog happened at the very last moment.  Usually I write these with an eye on the clock....will I be able to complete before the next posting window is closed?  There is a sense of pressure, future-focus, angst.  Big Deal.  So if I miss the "deadline" the blog is posted two hours later.  See what the ego can do to us?!!  That day I just stayed in the state of allowing GOD to DO.  No anxiety...ease and grace.  When I was complete I glanced at the clock: 2 minutes to go.  I set the appropriate time in Feedburner with a minute left.  Something (the ONE, obviously,) had me go back to Typepad.  I then noticed I had never done the final click to publish.  I did so with less than a minute remaining.  None of this caused me a lick of stress.

THAT is what life can be like when we ALLOW God to be in charge!  There are many more advantages too!

I have come into a fresh practice that is working really well.  I recalled that Master said that God separated Himself into bits of Consciousness, us, so that He could ENJOY Himself through all those bits.  That's the true purpose of this whole show here!

I have begun to step aside (my ego) and let GOD DO and ENJOY.  WOW!  Today, at Mass, the way this manifested was delightful.  When Father gave his homily, I allowed God in me to fully enjoy it.  The ONE was enjoying watching and listening to the God in Father do his thing.  I have never enjoyed Father more!  Even as a witness, it was over-the-top.  Father said some very amusing things today...I noticed I was laughing the loudest.

At one point, ego "judged" another parishioner.  I realized something key.  God must not enjoy our judgments of Him expressing in others very much.  If my practice is to ALLOW His ultimate enjoyment, I must refrain from any of that.  Also, why would He care to experience my "OPINIONS".  When one is fully in the moment, which is how it must be to ALLOW God PRESENT, there ARE NO OPINIONS.  It is all just unfolding for God's enjoyment...and we are just along for the ride!

I also realized it is not my business what other egos may be doing.  Who cares?  The God behind their egos is perfect, beautiful, and sometimes perhaps, very, very patient.  Their egos are meaningless, really.  The ego thinks it does this and that....in actuality God does it ALL.  What does it matter about our own or others' egos?  What matters is to keep our focus on our own and everyone else's inner DIVINITY.

I finally understand why life flows so smoothly for those who are allowing God in to DO.  God DOES all very well.  I use to thank God for this idea, or that 'save' in a situation.  I realize now the ONE would be doing it all in perfect harmony and grace ALL THE TIME if I just allowed it!  WHO'S MORE CAPABLE THAN GOD?!!!

When I maintain the Consciousness of God doing and enjoying through me I am always in the present moment!  God has no interest in the past or future...it is all NOW for Him.  It is only our egos that pull us backward or future-ward as we try to redress or control the outcome!  Thinking of such is just pure attempt at manipulation.  AS IF!!  If we allow God to fill up each moment with His Perfection....the future WILL be perfect WHEN IT GETS HERE!!

I notice my Self Care has improved.  My ego would put off the restroom or getting a glass of water to get something done!!  Now, as soon as the God in me notices such simple and honest requirements, I take care of them!  Why would I choose to have my beloved ONE experience pain or thirst?  Besides, there is nothing to get done...only the allowing of the ONE to enjoy the moment as IT DOES.

I have always envied those folks who are so calm and peaceful and graceful.  Now I understand they were fully IN THE MOMENT!  When I allow God to enjoy making the OJ (I'm fasting), enjoy cleaning the juicer, enjoy drinking the juice, O BOY. It's ALL fun!  Darn if I know why He gets a kick out of every little thing...but He DOES!  The ego didn't like it...GOD LOVES IT ALL!

So, you have already guessed that drinking that OJ was experiencing the best drinking-of-OJ I have ever had!

I'm writing this blog with a big smile on my face.  Allowing God to do it all makes it a very restful, peaceful, NON-STRESSFUL Life!!  My only assignment is to allow, then witness, God enjoying Himself. 

Loving you always...and you know WHO is doing the LOVING! k

 

 

WHO'S DOING?

Good Morning!

I am doing my best to step out of the writing and allow God to step in. The ego will fail if it tries to express this morning's revelations.

I awoke and immediately began repeating "I am my ONE are One" as my Master (how I refer to Yogananda) advises upon retiring and awakening.  Last night we read in His Lessons that we should repeat this over and over until we feel the great bliss of God.  If we are required to make a decision, it is from this Consciousness, God-saturated, that it should be made.

So, I kept repeating the affirmation until that state arrived. I often think of you when these things happen.  "I must offer encouragement for them to do this practice...it is incredible".  From that state various awareness's descended upon me, many from the seed ideas planted from my recent immersion in Master's recorded talks and Lessons.

He has been speaking of the necessity for us to remember that we do nothing!  God does it ALL.  If we remember this, or if we remember to offer all action to God, there is no karma accrued AND we are always even-minded, safe, secure.  Life is a joy....with ego-attachment it is a nightmare!  (Sure it is up and down AND after a while, that constant joy-sorrow dance feels quite nightmarish!)

I reflected on the prayer I have been doing for some time. "Please eradicate all my material desires and all my earthly and physical karma." I have been telling myself I have not asked for complete desireless on ALL planes of existence, and for my astral and causal karma to be removed as well, because it was "too much" to ask...too big a job.

I faced the fact this morning that it wasn't true.  In honesty, I have been holding out on God.  My greatest desire has been to reunite with my Gurus on Hiranayaloka after death.  One goes there to work out the last bits of astral karma with that planet's Savior, Swami Sri Yukteswar.  I did not choose for all my astral karma to be dissolved!  I  have been choosing for my Reunion with Him instead!

I experienced HUGE pain in my heart as I wrenched that desire free (probably only temporarily and I am working on it) and offered it up.  I began praying for the release of ALL my karma and ALL my desires, tears streaming down my face.

I eventually attained a place of peace and evenness with this new direction and depth of surrender to the Will of the ONE.  I trust the ONE.  I will ever be with my beloved Gurus as They are already completely merged in the ONE with Consciousness.  There will be no separation.  They are living in my heart.  If the One chooses to experience Hiranyaloka through the Consciousness I am, such will happen.  If this is the greatest expression of Love the One can experience through this bit of Consciousness I am, so it will be. 

The ONE is complete Love and only Love....and EVERY thing that manifests through the ONE will always reflect the greatest love possible IF we allow the ONE to express through us freely without ego obstruction!!

I was in such a blissful state I did not willingly choose to "do" anything.  Yet my Master, whom I trust implicitly, has requested I take a vow to do my Kriya twice daily.  I honored my vow and did my Kriya.  Just as He has always said....it's practice took me deeper still.  It is amusing that I still resist, isn't it?

From the place I arrived with Kriya, I clearly saw how it is the ONE's energy that performs ALL action, and our deluded little nothing egos are foolish enough to think we do anything!  In fact, when doing Kriya, I experienced God doing them, instead of myself.  Of course...they were much better!

I remained in that non-ego identified state when I arose.  I did my duties from that place...and all was ease and grace and amazingly peaceful.  My heart was quiet.  I was still.  I was loved.

I allowed God in me to take the opportunity to serve God in Dennis by making some fresh OJ and ground almonds.  I noticed that one glass was more full than the other.  I observed the reaction of the ego.  It "knew" the right thing was to give the greater amount of OJ to Dennis. It would do so, with that sense of resistance the ego usually offers.  I then saw the same experience with the God in me "doing".  The God in me lives for love alone.  It would always easily and joyfully give the better part to the God in another because that is the most LOVING thing to do.  How much easier and sweeter life is when we allow God to be the doer Consciously.  (God is ALWAYS the doer...yet ego-identified action causes pain and unease.)

I thought of a very dear person who has a key role of service at the Temple.  They have been stressing a bit lately because the work on their watch seems to be doubling.  I saw clearly that they were feeling "responsible".  They are NOT responsible.  It's God's job, God is doing it, and they are just the witness.  Once they remember that, and they will, they will no longer feel any stress around it.

I notice I am concerned I may lose this incredibly freeing practice of allowing God to do.  Amusing.  I will allow the God in me to remember by listening to Master's CD's, reading His Lessons, and meditating and meditating and meditating. 

The ego will fight, no doubt, AND who's stronger than GOD?!!

The God in me loves the God in you, k

Problems and God

Inshallah

Good Day!

Who says God doesn't have a sense of humor?

I am on Retreat and this time I have been good about not checking email, writing email, etc.  I strongly suggest you sometime try a break from the "Social Network".  It's very interesting to watch how the ego repeatedly glances at the computer (or for many of you, Smart Phone) to see if anything has come in.  The first day that's just what I did, albeit longingly, since I was "fasting" from email...then it lost it's hold over me.  I have to admit I am thankful I got off Facebook after two months, and never Twittered!

I challenge you to take a break from "The Social Network"!  At our trainings, both staff and participants must do so...otherwise there is no sense of being in the moment with full attention to the intense ego-purification that occurs at Inshallah.  Since staff are volunteering their services for the week, they are allowed emergency cell contact.  Participants, however, go full cold turkey.

Yet, I digress.  I had decided to post a blog on the advantages of "problems".  The chief advantage, which I believe is universal, is that problems bring one back to asking for assistance from a Higher Power.  How many times have you heard of  those folks who do not even necessarily believe in God, yet begin to make their prayerful petitions as a last resort?

So, yesterday morning I was dashing to Mass at my first opportunity to see both Father Charles and Jesus (in the sublime way I experience Him in the Eucharist).  I was so happy and excited!  I held my car key in one hand and was reaching in the back seat for something, when the key tumbled out and down into the bowels of the car frame! OMG!

Not only was I going to miss Mass, I was probably going to pay a hefty fee for a mechanic, or whomever takes car bodies apart, to retrieve my key.  I was panicked.  Mostly, I just really, really didn't choose to miss my appointment with my Beloved Jesus!!  I started praying to beat the band!!  Threw my whole heart right into it.  I will never understand how I was able to work a couple of fingers into that tiny opening into the frame, locate the key, and drag it out.  I tell you....it was miraculous, haha.

After Mass, when explaining to Father why I was a couple minutes late, he murmured, "That happened for a reason."

I honestly believe I had the karma for a major problem here, and because it was set into the matrix of my devotional endeavors, my devotional zeal was able to engage and get some Big Help!

So, fast forward to the middle of last night.  Around 3AM.  I had an intense unburdening with my Gurus, one of the wondrous aspects of Retreat, and decided to get up as I had to get to and from Hemet before Mass at 8:30AM.  I went down to the training room which had been totally cleared for yesterday's carpet cleaner.  My meditation spot was completely empty.  We operate a large scale energy uplevel for Inshallah from under my meditation seat.  I retrieved the large basket of implements: cords, wires, boxes...a jumble!

I just looked at it and sighed.  This was going to take a very, very long time to unravel.  I again prayed for assistance.  I am not particularly good at this kind of thing...and it was complete in record time.  God knew I just chose to get on with meditation and BE WITH HIM!

So, I left for Hemet even earlier than intended, yet arrived quite late compared to the google maps estimate.  I looked at the time: 8:05, and was well across Hemet and it's endless Florida Blvd which I affectionately refer to as the world's longest strip mall.  I started praying  out loud and fervently,"Please, PLEASE get me to the church on time!!"  I asked to at least make it for the homily, and of course, the Blessed Eucharist.  I also asked to be spared a ticket!!

Well, I cannot fathom how I could have made it all the way across Hemet and up the mountain to arrive by 8:39.  There is only one explanation: GOD POWER!! I walked in just as Father was finishing the Gospel reading.  I happily entered the pew to find he was NOT going to do one of his phenomenally wonderful homilies..it was meditative Mass day!  Had I been any later I would have barged right in on the whole gang in deep and silent prayer!  VERY uncool!  Thank God for GOD!

I decided to blog about how these little (and  sometimes big) "interruptions" in life are wonderful magnets for Devotion and Remembrance.  Yogananda has a straightforward view about problems in life...He says that problems are what life is about...and it is our Divine Duty to overcome them!  I like that attitude since problems and their solution are then held as the purpose rather than the interuption of a life well lived!

When I went to sign-in to Typepad to write the blog, I just couldn't do it.  I must have tried thirty times or more.  I sent TWO help tickets in, and absolutely RUED the fact that I WOULD have to check my email to find out what to do.  I mentioned to God that it looked like I wouldn't be blogging about how "problems" make us think of and communicate with GOD.  LIGHT ON! I hadn't asked His assistance with this one....don't you think that's pretty funny?

I did ask.  Immediately, I was logged in. 

Who says God doesn't have a sense of humor!!

Now, God and Taj and I are going for a walk in the forest!

Loving you always, k