Source Seminars

Trading it ALL

Good Evening!

I woke up late today...and I absolutely know it was a Gift from God.  I have been getting by on little sleep and feeling it.  Today I woke up, closed the black-out curtains, grabbed my pillow and said to God,
"This is YOU I am holding onto, God.  You are everything and right now you are THIS PILLOW." 
I felt so secure, and cozy with my arms wrapped around my Beloved, I went back to sleep for THREE HOURS!  I can't even remember the last time I slept in that late.

Love was surging within me for the ONE, and I had the thought that I may have Traded all the other Blessings for this one great Blessing of Loving God so much.  Emotions can run strong among those
incarnating on this planet...and I am an emotional being anyway.  To have the joy of turning those emotions full bore on God is a very special Blessing indeed!  If I did trade all for this...it has been a very, very good trade!

In a strange way, I found myself on the Net in discovery of the National Shrine of Saint Francis...my favorite Catholic saint.  I then came upon this special Indulgence related to it.  I realized it would not be that difficult to accomplish... if I popped out for the Sacrament of Reconciliation at the Old St. Mary's Cathedral just 3 blocks away.  While there I paid a visit to Dear St.Therese of Lisieux...another stock favorite to whom I pray daily.  I had lit a candle for her on Monday and I saw it still burning brightly beneath her statue.  Praying to Petite Therese, as she prefers to be called, I thought again how very lucky I am.

Returning to my room I continued my meditation until complete. Feeling God's Love very strongly, I read the very first of my SRF Lessons.  In the state I was in, each word penetrated deep into my soul...how very much I had changed since I first read this lesson in 1971.

Dennis arrived back and we went out for an early dinner.  I noticed how sweetly God took care of us in myriad ways. Gifts came to us from here and there and everywhere...and though people conduited them, they had God's signature all over!

I then received a most incredible email...the only new one in my in-box...from a grad head-over-heels in LOVE.
"I realized (i'm in tears right now sharing this with you) that I am in love for the very first time ever...in love with God!"  They went on to write, "I am hoping you can bring this beautiful love I am feeling with you into your Darkness...."

These words of vibrant encouragement so synchronistic with what I have been feeling this day...were the perfect passport stamp on my Darkness Retreat.

If we could only stop for a moment and reflect on what true Divine Romance is like.  What is it to have the Lord of the Universe as one's lover?  This ONE with all the Power and Poise extant in Creation focused on LOVING YOU!  When God KNOWS you love God/choose God over any and all outer distractions or "toys", God finally creeps out of God's shy shadows and boldly emblazons a HUGE Return Love across the sky of our lives!

I know I am still very young in my LOVE for the ONE....and yet I also know there is nothing sweeter, even now, in my life.  I ask you to consider wearing your heart on your sleeve for a bit...allowing yourself to be smitten with the ONE behind each love you have ever beheld.  Trading all of life's gifts for the Gift of Loving the ONE...is a very, very good trade!

Loving you in the ONE, k

The Underneath

Good Morning! 

I have been aware of a change in my center of "reaction" of late.  With the exception of my interaction with Dennis (a notable exception ;-), the external Fraud world does not impact me the way it once did.  I am much more likely to be doing 6 Kriyas, or reciting a mental mantra, or meditating under my shades, then to be too taken up with the external.  HOWEVER....

I have become aware of the massive impact on my psyche, my mood, my behavior, my thought by what lies UNDERNEATH.  I sense that the storehouse of my subconscious has many unsavory "treasures" yet to be unearthed and sanitized.  I know that the nuns and monks in their much less public, less outward lives, deal much with this receptacle of unwonted and unwanted reactions and beliefs.  Just when one might think they have things "under control", HA! they realize the amazing influence of what lies beneath their conscious behaviors, thoughts, and feelings.

When I awaken in the morning I am especially aware of the unbidden feelings and mood that awaken with me.  They are reflective of another unknown realm where I have store-housed the reactions of centuries.  There is much work to be done here and I sense I am loathe to do it.  This is why I, and others, keep ourselves so BUSY with fraud world stuff.  If I can spin fast enough, I won't have to look...I won't have to "see".

As I approach my Darkness Retreat I realize the sh** is REALLY going to hit the fan this year.  There aren't many places to run, to hide when your whole world is darkness.  Your most subtle thoughts begin to percolate to the mind's surface and glare you in the face!

The sneaky little ways I have avoided facing up...those tricky little mind-devices to glaze over the obvious flaws and failings...Darkness means GAME OVER!

I do know Kriya yoga burns much of this dross, as does regular meditation, albeit slower.  Still the piper must be paid...and with my Gurus by my side, I aim to make a sizable installment starting this Saturday.  I am Facing my little self down...and backing it into a corner.  I am weary, so very weary, of it's lordship over various aspects of my life.  Most of all...of the knee-jerk stuff I see in my primary relationship.

I read today of a grad's bliss in meditation...and I smiled, "He doesn't know the half of it.  There's that whole other side Underneath, to be dealt with."

And we will, each of us, one step toward the Light, at a time.

Loving the ONE in you! k

 

 

Sitting next to Jesus

Good Morning!

As we entered the plane, Den asked how full the flight was.  The stewardess replied that there were 26 empty seats.  We sat toward the back; Den on the aisle, me at the window.  He asked if he should move into the middle and I said I thought no one would sit there if he stayed where he was.  Of course we had some stuff laying on that seat too...we were choosing no "intruders".  I had my sunglasses on and began meditating.  I was aware of the passengers filing through the aisle and kept hoping they would continue walking past.  Surely, God would choose our undisturbed space?  Just as the last ones came by, a young man squeezed in the middle seat.  I was really surprised...normally Den would have moved over. 

I just kept my eyes closed and kept on inward.  I was aware that the fellow kept looking over his shoulder though, and after a couple of minutes he excused himself and moved into the aisle seat behind us.  Well...God HAD chosen our solitude after all...NOT!  A moment later the gal who had the seat returned and commented, "I'm a tough New Jersey girl...and was prepared to fight for it."  Our fellow immediately jumped up and back to his seat next to me saying, "I'm a lover, not a fighter."

I smiled at that comment and in a moment reached in my purse for my mala.  I was ready to start my Kriyas.  Under my shades, fingering my mala silently, I couldn't help wonder what he thought he got himself into, sitting next to such a seatmate.

Suddenly, I had the distinct Guidance to turn to him and say, "You know, you should try what I am doing...you will like it!"  Coming out of nowhere, I said just that to him.  His response, "You know when I saw you meditating, I thought "I'm gonna try to do this" and I closed my eyes.  But I don't know  what to do."

I quickly taught him the preparatory breathing, and then the focus at the Spiritual Eye to feel the inflow of peace and loving energy.  I returned to my Kriya, astounded at the whole interchange.  I could feel him next to me, trying his best to meditate.  I just kept keeping on.  After some time, I stopped and simply told him I would give him the name of a book to read to assist him before we got off the flight, and went back to what had become an excellent meditation for me.  I would occasionally send out vibrations and prayers of love and peace.  I marveled how this young man's life might conceivably change from this small experience.

Again, out of nowhere, just after saying the above, another young man sitting in the row ahead, just turned around and looked at me and said, "Thank you!"

I really did not choose to stop meditating til we landed...it was a good one!  Yet, I brought myself out, and the young man immediately asked for the name of the book.  He said he liked what he had been doing, it felt good!  I told him we all keep seeking on the outside, indicating the Fraud World with my hands, and yet all we are searching for is inside ourselves...a very Core of goodness.  He said he'd been thinking the same thing lately.

He wrote down the Autobiography of a Yogi into his phone, and I gave him the Source website so he could find the blog.  "Tell me how things go for you," I requested.  He said he would.

"By the way, what's your name?" I asked.

"My name is Jesus."

Loving you in the ONE! k

 

On Sunglasses

Good Day! (Sunshine!)

Yes...the title IS correct...on SUNGLASSES!

Yesterday, as I was getting ready to depart with my dear friend for Disneyland, I asked her what was on her to-bring list.  She mentioned sunglasses!  Now, I had purchased some ages ago, yet never use them.  I thought, "Why not, I'll take them!"

We emerged from the parking structure and I marveled at how different the world looked with sunglasses!  When I glanced in the mirror in the ladies' room, I thought I sure looked a lot different too.

It's summer and inevitably Disneyland has rather long lines.  THIS is when the true MAGIC of sunglasses emerged!  I realized I could stand there, totally incognito, and MEDITATE.  I could go inside and vibe with the Great Ones and instead of being that weirdo in line with her eyes closed (although I've gotten used to being just that) I was just a very quiet woman who had little to say.  I meditated myself through line after line and enjoyed every minute of it.

When I was waiting for Space Mountain, one of my faves as it feels like I'm going through the Spiritual Eye into the Cosmic Galaxy, I was also able to complete my Energizers.  I got on the ride, and was totally prepared to have Master and my Bapuji (Sri Yukteswar) riding in the empty seat beside me in the very front spot.  I let go of the hand-hold and held Their hands instead.  Doing so made it a very wild ride which we all enjoyed immensely!

I always notice I am able to Practice the Presence more easily at Disneyland than most places.  I guess this is because my daughter Sundari and I started sharing all the rides with the Gurus when she was just a little tyke.  I love to yell out Master!, Sri Yukteswar! as I am rollicking on the roller coaster and truly feel Their pleasure in the whole experience as well.

Yesterday evening we went to Krishnadas.  I forgot my sunglasses!!  Sundari's dad accompanied us to the concert and graciously allowed me to borrow his.  I put them on and had the best concert experience.  I could keep my eyes closed, meditate, weep copiously for God and Gurus, and nobody really knew what was going on with me.  Dennis wore his too...so there we were, wearing sunglasses at night and inside... breaking the Inshallah rules!  But we were so blissed out we just didn't care.  Rarely, I would remove them and look, and immediately put them back on!  It was just so much easier to stay interiorized and focused on the Love Within, under their protective shade.

Use my tip and keep those sunglasses with you!!  You've got an immediate, fairly inconspicuous (depending if you are inside or out ;-) meditation cover-up that makes your Inner Retreat immediate with Ease and Grace!

Loving you in the ONE! k

Guru Purnima

Good Evening!

I am astounded at the sweet way God and our Teachers look out for us.
I was at my Temple on Sunday and an incredible letter was read from the God-Realized Soul that is President of our church.  It was about TODAY...a very sacred and auspicious day called Guru Purnima in India.  Purnima means full moon and this one, in July-August each year, is always dedicated to one's Guru or Teacher.  When I heard the letter tears were running down my face.  I had the immediate, absolutely in-concrete thought, " We will have a 6 hour meditation on that day!"  I contacted my meditation partner and our Core IV group.  Dennis was graciously on board, and he and some others met this AM at 3:35 to Energize and then meditate until 10AM.  It was interesting because after I had made the decision to have the long med, I read on the Net, "Arise at 4AM and meditate through the morning hours."  Well...that was essentially the plan.

Having executed it, the day floated along calmly...sweet, no big deal, just easy and centered.  For whatever reason I again researched Guru Purnima on the Net.  I discovered something AMAZING.  Anything we do on this day to honor our Teacher and follow His Teachings and Guidelines is ONE THOUSAND TIMES more powerful than on any other day of the year!!

How does this work?, you may ask.  I am sure it's astrological...the position of the sun and moon, etc., are such to incredibly strengthen the impact of our Spiritual efforts.  The article went on to say that disciples do as much as they can on this day because of the huge increase in Spiritual benefit and Grace.  In other words, our 6 hours of meditation this morning is equivalent to SIX THOUSAND HOURS of meditation.

Now you see why I am reflecting on the sweet way our Teachers have our backs!  I knew none of this yet the resolve to meditate these 6 hours today was in stone from the moment I found out about Guru Purnima.  I knew the day was to honor this most significant Relationship...as Guru means Dispeller of Darkness...what could be more important than that?!!

I am choosing to meditate some more...yet chose to get this out in the hopes some of you would see it before the day is done.  I encourage you to put pedal to the metal and reap a thousand times the benefit of your effort!  Meditation of course, and also Spiritual study, is wise.  If you offer whatever you do as a gift to the Guru, that is most powerful too. 

I am offering this blog to You, my Beloved Gurudevas!

In the LOVE of the ONE! k

It's the FREQUENCY, stupid!

Good Morning!

Years ago, when Clinton was running his first presidential campaign, his team wrote up on the blackboard at an early organizational meeting: It's the ECONOMY, stupid!  We all know the result...he won BIG.

This morning I awoke with a smile on my face, a chant running in my head, and all in all feeling GREAT!  I can't say that's been the consistent case of late.  I know why!

Yesterday, though in bed late the night before, I got up, meditated some, went to Mass, went to Temple and meditated more, went to Sunday Service, went to the Meditation Gardens and my Teacher's holy study and bedroom in the Hermitage, and then went back to the Temple for the Gita Study and meditation.  No duh I awoke HAPPY....the High Frequency generated by ALL of those choices put me in the Groove...the Groove of the Divine Flow.

When we make our Highest Choice we also insure our HAPPINESS.  It's just that SIMPLE.  There's no rocket science involved here folks....just DISCIPLINE AND WISDOM!!  Why do we go down the same sorry, pot-hole filled road when we already KNOW it leads to unfulfillment at best, and misery at worst?

There are a few culprits.  One of the most powerful is HABIT.  We are robotic, on auto pilot, much of the time.  Habit's powerful accomplice is LACK OF AWARENESS. We fail to stop and THINK...only a moment would suffice.  We then would REMEMBER that when we did the unconscious behavior, made the lower frequency choice the last time AND EVERY PRECEDING TIME, it did NOT bring us HAPPINESS. 

Then, even if we bring our Awareness in, we often lack the SELF-DISCIPLINE to do the right thing...make the Higher choice.  Why?  Because we allow EGO to KEEP the reins of control us!!  We don't give over the control of our minds, hearts, and lives to King Soul!

I am suggesting the very next time, and every time you must make a choice, pause and go through this check list.
1.  Am I on auto-pilot, just doing what I always do, HABITUALLY?
2.  Am I AWARE?  Am I REMEMBERING what happened last time I made this choice?
3.  Am I invoking my SELF-DISCIPLINE?
4.  Am I allowing EGO to run my life...STILL?  Or did KING SOUL wrest those reins right out of Ego's grimy hands, and take back the chariot of my life?

So here's a clear choice for you!  (Some of you already made this choice, so it doesn't apply.)  I suggest you subscribe to these blogs.
Why?  Because you will automatically get these soul reminders in your in-box when I finally DO write one!  Now...why wouldn't you?
Habit...you didn't in the past.  Lack of awareness...you aren't even aware if you miss one.  Self-discipline...too lazy to go to the Source site and just fill in the subscription, then click on the confirming link.
And most likely of all....your EGO doesn't NOT choose you to do this.  It says, you don't need to.  You don't don't want those soul reminders coming in automatically.  They may weaken it's grip on you!

I too will make a powerful choice today.  I am canceling my Face Book.  I will post the FINAL blog reminder on it...and then I am out.  The frequency there truly doesn't serve me and I know it.  So...I know a number of you have been depending on my FB reminders...this is the last time you will have that assist to your Soul Awareness.  Pick up on it!!
Loving you ALWAYS, k