Source Seminars

As a MIND thinketh...

Inshallah

Good Morning!

The other early morning I awoke and for some reason began playing out worrisome scenarios in my mind.  I watched my anxiety increase as the thoughts marched on.  "My word," I considered, "I am CREATING this unpleasant state of being by my train of thought!"  Immediately I began dwelling on something that ALWAYS brings me joy...the visage of my Master.  Again, I immediately felt the loathsome energy move into my heart and become light.  I saw how I could play my mind like a keyboard...moving up and down the scale of emotion and feeling.

Try this very same thought sequence, unpleasant than pleasant, and I guarantee the same results..regardless of where you begin.  Of course, if you have been heavily investing in negative thought, it may take a bit longer to move the energy up with lighter, happier thinking and still....it WILL happen!

Look around and begin noticing the mental states of those with whom you interact.  If their penchant is cup half-empty, they will reveal that very habit on their unsmiling faces!  If they are optimists...they will often sport a smile and feel much nicer to be around as well.

It IS WE who create our happy or sad lives by our thoughts and perceptions.  As my Master was wont to say, "Conditions are essentially neutral."  He said we were the ones that put the judgment...negative or positive..upon our life situations and events.  If we can write the story, comedy or tragedy, why not begin RE-writing TODAY!  Even when things are not as we would have chosen them...we can examine the situation for the good in the difference!

Today I was out on the trail and I noticed a garden statue had been put in the incorrect place.  As I moved it, I realized the misplacement had shown the perfect spot for the new statue of St Anthony I had just brought up to Inshallah.  I would not have thought of it if the garden angel had not been mistakenly put there.  How often is that the case?  That though things are not as expected, or 'as they have always been', the change or even the error has opened up vistas for new creativity and even genius to flow through!

If we MAKE UP OUR MINDS to see the good in each turn of events, we WILL see it!!  The old silver lining behind every cloud adage is TRUE!  It is up to us to be aware enough, and humble enough, to perceive it!  Just because it didn't turn out the way WE chose it to be does NOT mean it won't actually turn out BETTER in the larger perspective!  We must have the humility to allow God and the Great Ones to maneuver around our lives, setting things in even better order than we could!  Indeed, it is also our Higher Selves that have a hand in all this...for it is only our egos that judge, and see limitation, in what IS. 

It is time this Higher, Finer part of ourselves takes the reins and brings our minds under Benevolent Control.  We CAN have the happy lives we seek....we just must allow our thoughts to have the soul's penchant for Happiness...not the ego's penchant for "what's wrong!"

I have noticed myself laughing at myself more lately...it IS comical what the ego tries to get away with.  From this moment I am committing to see WHAT'S RIGHT about the way things are manifesting...to view each 'surprise' as my next opportunity to move closer to God.  For as surely as I do trust GOD, as surely I must trust the way GOD is presenting this movie-life to me.

Yes...as my MIND thinketh...and I am sculpting my mind to see it's GOOD....GOD...EVERYWHERE!

Loving you always, k

When you're being "played"

Good Evening!

We saw an incredible video of a talk by Brother Anandamoy, perhaps one of the most widely respected SRF Ministers.  One comment in particular struck a strong cord with me.  He said that we were constantly being "tested" and the purpose of these 'tests' was to lead us closer to God.  He said if we had the proper attitude toward the situation and were surrendered and open, we "passed the test".  If not...if we resisted, in other words, we failed...and we would have to face that same 'test' albeit in new circumstances, again and again, until we "passed that test".

I personally don't like the word or perspective of "test".  I choose to use the word a dear grad coined years past, "opportunity".  Still, the impact of this whole perspective and way of holding my life's experiences, has been profound.

Let me illustrate.  Last week we were cleaning the dome, Bobbi and I.  I was washing various cloth items when the handle fell off the glass pitcher I was using to add extra water to the tub.  The pitcher shattered throughout my clothes.  I surveyed the damage and calmly asked Guidance what my best plan was.  I got to pick out the glass I could, and just run the load.  That's what I did and all worked out fairly well.

We unloaded EVERYTHING from the dome into the yard.  Suddenly, and totally unexpectedly, came a very robust downpour.  All was drenched...electrical things, paintings, photos, cloth....ALL.  We hustled as much as could into the dome and valiantly attempted to complete in orderly fashion.  Ha!  With this and the prior laundry incident, I distinctly felt I was getting "played" by my Guru.  He was giving me interesting experiences and seeing if I could retain both my composure AND my sense of humor or at least detachment.

The experience that sealed the deal on this hunch was the last thing that happened that day.  I was DEFINITELY choosing rest...it was late AND I was to rise very early for my long med with Bobbi the next morning.  "I just have to get my Kriyas done in this hour med...and I will hit the sack."
I started in and I GOT THE HICCUPS!  Now, it is IMPOSSIBLE to do one's Kriyas with the hiccups.  Just can't be done.  There was not a lot I could do.  I thought....well, I'll just do them mentally for awhile.  That's what I did...until the hiccup challenge passed.  I laughed and laughed.  I KNEW I was getting played!!  I actually felt quite loved....my Master really had to go out of His way to develop all these interesting experiences so I could stretch my ability to remain even-minded.

My perspective has changed.  Now when there is an unexpected turn of events that is NOT how I would prefer it to be...I KNOW I am getting played.  I chuckle and move on.  Sunday, at the Gita study, I was all set to read.  I was looking forward to my turn as reading out loud is something I really enjoy.  Finally it came round to me and just as I opened my mouth to begin, the leader announced, "That's all for today.  Let's meditate."
Sundari looked at her watch and said, "Mom, why is she stopping early?"
I smiled and said, "Because I am getting played."

Now, in truth, I will tell you I don't ALWAYS succeed.  When it is a very big trigger related to an old and stubborn wound...well, I still can lose it.  Last night at the end of the Lesson study something happened with Dennis that REALLY triggered an old wound.  I just lost it.  Red hot, volcanically lost it.
It wasn't til this morning I realized that was the next step up in the "getting played" scenario.  My Teacher knows I am getting pretty good at the small stuff...He's upping the ante.  When I can remember these major triggers are just my next opportunity to advance toward God, and handle them with grace and a knowing sense of humor, I will be ready for the REALLY BIG SHOW.  O boy....can't wait.

So step back and allow yourself to participate willingly in the Cosmic Comedy.  Sure is a lot more fun that way. 
Go ahead, I say, Play me.....until I am Played ALL THE WAY HOME!

Loving you...playfully, k

Good Decisions Make You HAPPY

 Good Evening,

This is just a quickie as I am actually hoping to inspire you to follow suit!

Yesterday my daughter and I raced home from Disneyland so we could make the meditation and Gita study at the Temple.  We were joined by her dad and Den and it was GREAT!

Den and I chose to stay up VERY LATE last evening to preview a film for Source Movie Night this Saturday.  Since we are hitting the Temple each evening it offers something, we really had to watch it last night.  It was good, uplifting, and had no negative overtones on my Consciousness today.

Tonight my daughter, Den, and I and a dear CORE IV member hit the meditation and Lesson Study.  We had to dash out the last half hour to get to Trader Joe's before it closed.  I was incredibly buoyant...even though I was up til after 2AM last night.  This is VERY unusual.  My "closing" Trader's is not usually this kind of experience at all.   In the past, I was beat and drained if I went there that late.

So....it's all about doing something that is a definite frequency-raiser early in the evening, including my meditation.   I am so Happy right now it's almost absurd, and STILL quite energized.

Folks....make your HIghest Choices...those GOOD DECISIONS... and duplicate what I am feeling.    Whatever it takes to change those old dead-end patterns that result in "tired blood" (isn't that what they used to call it?;-), JUST DO IT!!

If at this very moment, you are not bubbling over with joy, you are not making your Highest Choices.  Trust me, I believe we are actually JOY MACHINES....made in the Image of our Creator who is MADE of EVER NEW JOY!!  If we can just get back to where we started..."Back to the Garden" (of Eden), we WILL Remember.  One choice at a time...the choice that will RAISE your frequency, will ATTACH you to the ONE,  that will CONNECT you with your innate INNER PEACE AND JOY, is all it takes!!

GOOD DECISIONS MAKE YOU HAPPY!!

Haha...Loving you! k