Source Seminars

In Love and Gratitude

Good Sunday Morning!

I am sitting here marveling at how God has our backs!  We are about to leave on Level IV Holy Land and it happens this year we are all Kriya Yogis...just turned out that way, unplanned.  We had arranged for the group to meet with a very Beloved monk for pre-trip Inspiration.  He mentioned  he would have to do it earlier as he was preparing to give a Kriyaban Ceremony...something specific and relatively rare for Initiates.  What!  I thought...that sounds mighty good.  When I discovered it was going to be held locally I was able to arrange for our whole group to attend.

It turned out to be the best experience of its kind in my life!  Way over-the-top.  So now, just before we leave for the Holy Land, a number of us have received very enlightening instruction in performing the center piece of our meditation deeply, correctly, and well!

This morning Dennis and I sat down to our meditation together and he mentioned he would not be staying as long as I.  Ha!  Since we both performed our Kriyas SO MUCH more deeply...he was there every bit as long as myself.  We were also both remarkably interiorized at the end...and I "saw" how amazing the timing of this series of events was for us...and for each of those coming on Level IV.  God sure has our backs...and our Gurus set this whole thing up...it is so patently obvious!!

We are going into 3 hours of meditation each morning with our group,and an hour an a half in the evening.  With the increased depth and concentration gifted us by attending the Kriyaban Ceremony, the whole tenor of the trip has evolved...and become intensely more powerful.

Attendance at Mass today was also really special.  As the priest spoke of the Upper Room where Jesus met with His disciples I knew in just days we would be IN that very Upper Room.  Jesus' Presence was palpable today...and shortly we will walk and experience the 5th Gospel.  "...Five gospels record the life of Jesus.  Four you will find in books and one you will find in the land they call Holy.  Read the fifth gospel and the world of the four will open to you."

I am Awash in Love and Gratitude....and I Share it with you!!

Loving you always, k

Putting Humpty-Dumpty back together

Good Morning!

I awoke early and remembered...not God, but the sh*tload of stuff I must complete before Level IV Holy Land...does that make it Holy sh*t?  Don't think so!
Whoaaaa...I thought.  I don't choose to wake up or even get up, with this burden hanging in my solar plexus.  I turned my full attention to GOD.  Does God Love me...Yes!  Does He have my back? Yes!  Do I have SEVERAL Friends in HIGH PLACES?  Yes!  Then why am I even worrying???

My BEST FRIENDS...and Dearest LOVE, are ALL Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnipresent.  They have more tools in Their arsenal to assist me than I even require!  Get over it!, I'm thinking, CALM DOWN!

I am even beginning to feel some compassion for my ego.  The ego isn't a bad guy, really, it just got attached to the wrong things!  The ego is the soul attached to the fraud world and the senses.  To feel WHOLE again, Complete, I just must retrieve all those energy strings flowing out the wrong way and bring 'em back HOME.

I start doing that...I start collecting them and bringing them into my CENTER.  I start feeling calmer, happier, more at peace.  It really IS that simple...Humpty-Dumpty just has to collect all those energy strands and bring them back HOME.  Each of us must Identify with the REAL, utterly and completely, and we are WHOLE once more!

I reflect on the Prayer: Lead me from the Unreal to the REAL...Yes!  From Darkness unto LIGHT....Yes!  From Ignorance to WISDOM...Yes!  From sorrow to JOY...Yes!  From desires to CONTENTMENT...Yes! From restlessness to PEACE...Yes!  And from death unto my IMMORTAL LIFE IN THEE...YES!! 

I rest in this solidarity for hours...and when I arise I am READY to live in this world WHOLE.  

We invest our energy outward...we become tattered and frayed.  We have scattered ourselves away from the ONE we ARE.  We collect ourselves once more...and Humpty-Dumpty is healed!

Loving you! k

Passion not pressure!

Good Morning!

Long time, no write.  Overscheduled and experiencing the consequences. ;-)
"When will I ever learn...."
My God and My Guru are choosing me to write today so here am I.

I woke up in the Current and knew if I could just MERGE I would be well on my way.  I chose to do that, unsuccessfully, and yet it was a good ride!

I asked for certain Guidance and got that if I could just be LAMBLIKE, applying no pressure to myself OR OTHERS, All would be well.  Ha!

Yes, that is my test, isn't it....or I should say, one of several ;-)

Something sweet happened at this recent most Super of Supers.  I had been shown that a particular grad was going to share that I had been pressuring them.  The forewarning was to allow me to make another choice than defensiveness when they brought this up at their sharing.  In this case, whatdyaknow, I had not been doing so.

It unfolded as I had been shown and I experienced what it is like to be accused WITHOUT reacting back, without buying in.  Very sweet.  I felt myself open, vulnerable, and at peace.  I choose to walk in the world this way!

A very dear grad asked to comment at this point in the sharing.  Choosing to remember... and I believe she said she awoke one day from a dream about me...or maybe just thinking about me, and she received this:  "It's not Pressure with Kanta,  it's Passion!"

Well...that's true WHEN I'm at my best!  I choose to live in that Passionate state of God, God, God...and more specifically GOD FIRST!

There is no Pressure when I am totally absorbed, It's just how things are!  It is my full STATE OF BEING.  My Teacher was called the Mad Monk when He was young.  I am comfortable being called Mad Kanta.

I truly choose to be in my Passion WITHOUT pressure on myself OR others!

I asked about a dear one this morning, whilst still in the Current.  My Teacher is happy with the situation...all will be well.  I must just stay in Passion and out of Pressure.   Ahhhh....I choose to do it!

I encourage you likewise.  Get Passionate about the Divine!  Immerse yourself in this Love of your Life!  Yet, don't pressure yourself when you are not perfect.  Saints were sinners who never gave up!  We're in progress!  Just keep moving forward, becoming more and more in Love with the LOVER we Each have been seeking, whether we know it or not!  We WILL reach our Goal.  PASSION, NOT pressure!

Loving you...It's good to be back! k