Source Seminars

Projection, again

Good Morning!
Yesterday I had a great meditation which spilled over into my overall vibration and countenance.  People responded most positively and even made comments about my effect on them.  These were strangers met as I went about my fraud-world routine.

Last night Dennis and I were in ego-based interaction of another sort.  I became very aware that parts of my ego definitely intensely disliked Dennis....and I am sure this is mutual.  I even joked about us being ordered to be together this lifetime, duking it out so we could get over the sharp-edged hurdles we seem to bring out in one another.

Early this morning I was laying in bed and the thoughts came.  I remembered what I had written a couple days back and could dance into the Godly vibration too.  I started reflecting on this whole my-ego -hates-his-ego thing.  I got it square in the eyes!  Bingo!  Dennis may have the hooks but my negative response is ALL ABOUT ME!  It is utter projection.  The unfinished business in me, the bad and the ugly anyway, I project smack onto Dennis.  It really doesn't matter what he's doing, or not, IT'S MY STUFF!

You may be chuckling since you know all about this from that very training exercise.  Ha Ha.  It's not much fun to get that stomach punch before one even gets out of bed.  I cried.  Seeing all that in myself that I detest (and I am sure there are huge parts I didn't see) overwhelmed me with crushing realization.  I asked my God and my Guru to place Their Hands on my heart to purify it.  I could feel Their Great Love immediately.  There is so much darkness yet in my heart...and underneath there IS Light.  They Love me...even with all the flaws, because They see the Truth and the Good behind.  Until I break my identification with my sorry ego I will suffer as I did today.

How quick can I learn to catch myself when I begin projecting my own self-hatred out?  It's NEVER about anybody or anything out there.  It's always about me.  I know I have written about this before...and you'll just have to bear with me.  I'm unfinished...so very unfinished.

I know some healers say we must love the dark side within us so that we can integrate it.  On one level that is probably true...love the lowly little devil ego...poor misguided wretch.  Accepting it instead of "fighting" with it will not make it stronger...on that level!  Yet, for me it is easier to face it, and experience the pain of it, and ask my Great Ones to purify it as it rests in my heart. 

The essential thing is to catch my negative projections AS SOON AS THEY EMERGE!  Immediately bring it back to, "Oh, this is a piece of my ego I REALLY dislike and this person, place, or event is triggering  it. The trick here is not to get terribly depressed about constantly seeing all that self-related darkness.

For me, the immediate Connection to my God and my Gurus for heart-healing and the inevitable Love They transmit along with it, provides a deep sense of solace.  They love me regardless of all my warts, and hopefully through Their unfailing example, I can learn to do the same.
Loving you, learning to love me, k

Find your Strengths and Use Them!

Good Morning!
I just completed my 3 hours and some and I came directly to you.  Love is much greater when you share it!!
I was in a good place...writing yesterday's blog set the tone and I kept recalling that quote about the chitta...the feelings being the cause of restlessness.  Right behind my body/mind was the Bliss my Teacher spoke of.  It kept me settled down pretty good...oh the ego was using the itchiness or pain pricks of the body against me once I squelched thought fairly well.  You know...ego will always think of another way to derail us.  We've just got to be quicker, smarter by calling on the Quickness and Smartness of the ONE.

So the first couple of hours and the techniques related to them went well...and then came Kriya.  Soon, I saw my mind was running around again.  This is the most important technique I do...the most powerful one of which I am aware...and I was stumbling.

What was I gonna do????  I then recalled what I had written...how everything must be offered to God.  BINGO.  I started by offering a Kriya to Baby Jesus as a birthday present.  Then another to Jesus for the incredible sacrifice of Love He made for all of us in the Crucifixion.  I offered  a Kriya for my Gurudev's Birthday which is coming up January 5th and another for His leaving the body Consciously (Mahasamadhi) on March 7th.   My other Beloved Teacher Sri Yukteswar got two Kriyas for His Mahasamadhi and Birthday and I was rolling.  I went through my entire lineage of Gurus, offering Kriya after Kriya, then the four Saints I especially revere: St. Francis, Therese, Buddha, and Clare.  The Mother of Christ got some as did Divine Mother...the Mother of us all.  Of course Heavenly Father God and the ONE got offerings.  In fact, the last several were offered directly to God.

Tears were rolling down my face.  God and the Great Ones had saved the day!  Offering each Kriya up as a loving gift from my heart changed everything.  I couldn't let my mind wander...I was giving a present!!  Of course, sometimes it did a bit, and I'd just do the next one to the same Teacher to make up for it.  Ego just couldn't pen me in...as much as it tried.

We each have a gift, a strong point, in our Spiritual walk.  Most likely more than one.  We must introspect and assess...and discover what is/are the strongest cannons in our arsenal.  These are the ones we must roll out to blast the ego to bits!!

I do love God.  Devotion is one of mine.  When I plugged that into my practice I could do Kriya with rapt attention.  You understand, devotion is feeling so it is also uncontrolled feelings and reactions that bring me down.  Yes...it is a double-edged sword...we must get on the right edge and make that sword work for us! 

You may be blessed with even-mindedness.   Sadly, this is not one of mine.  Yet you are able to stay calm and detached when required.  The other edge is you may be lacking the emotion necessary to feel great love for the One.  Use your strong suit!!  You will not have to deal with the incredible restlessness I do...you don't have so many "feelings" rolling around.  Sit in your placid state and get behind the mind to the Everpresent Bliss that is right there! 

We are each different.  Thank God!  How boring it would be if we weren't.  So now, take the time to look within and see what artillery you have in this war against the ego.  Get it out...dust it off...and USE IT.  Keep on the Highest Choice side of these gifts...remember they ARE double-edged.  You may use your Wisdom, I will use my Will, and we WILL CHOOSE RIGHTLY!!

Loving you! k

In between sleeping and waking....

Good Morning!
I awakened early feeling God, both energetically and in the devotional sense.  I watched how my mind stole in and started taking over.  Soon, I was dwelling on various limitations of my ego.  I became aware of how my mind played my body like a musical instrument.  As my mind played limiting tapes, my body would begin to tense up and feel uncomfortable.  I felt this in my solar plexus, primarily, but it was also an overall experience of "dread".  My heart lost it's joyful awareness of the ONE.

I awakened "again" in that I saw clearly how my mind took over my consciousness and brought in fear and limitation.  I cast it off.  I went behind the mind to the vast and unlimiting plane of Beingness.  I remembered I had NO limitations in this place.  I understand I never have them...yet when the mind casts it's net I most certainly experience that I do.

I began flying over the earth in freedom...so identified with this soaring that when I saw myself as a large orange energy I had the jolting thought that the military could shoot me down.  It was that real to me...and again the crafty mind piggy-backed on with a negative thought that "brought me down".

"There is no spoon..."as the child said in the Matrix.  Every night we have the opportunity to cast off the costumes of our egos and fly in Spirit.  The grip of this false reality is loosened and we may remember we are truly FREE.  That precious time between sleeping and waking is our Conscious doorway to the Infinite.  If we can just catch it, before the door closes and we again sink into mental identification with our small selves, we have the chance to FLY...both literally and figuratively.

That is why it is so important to occupy our minds with TRUTH.  Any way in which we can control our mind will lessen it's viselike grip on us.  You understand it is the MIND that is weaving this constant web of Fraud world limitation and fear.  We MUST break that cycle!!

What can we do?  Constantly keeping Company with the ONE, or our Teachers, via conversational dialogue or heart-centered focus on Presence and Guidance will do much.  Repetition of mantra or holy phrases is vastly superior to the meaningless "stream of consciousness" thinking of the ego chatterbox.  If you reflect, even a little, you will see it is the same ol', same ol', runabout of fear and lack and doubt and what-ifs.  We must learn to push the PAUSE button.  Then we must ask, Is this thinking wrapping me up like spider food?  Is it preparing me for an endless feast of KING EGO? Or are my thoughts reminding me I AM a FREE SOUL awakening to my rightful heritage in my ONE'S Divine Omnipresence and BLISS?

Of course, MEDITATION is Foundational!  It is the time we spend each day exclusively (as much as we can control our thoughts) focused on the ONE...and the Truth of who we are! (BTW...I have been doing much better since I fessed up to you regarding my very   unruly mind. There must be some grace when you own your faults. :-)

When we are involved in our daily duties, our "roles" this lifetime, our dharmic service to the God in ourselves and others, we must constantly act with the selfless thought of doing all for God!  Anything less will bind these actions to us, and create more ego bondage!  Offer it up, offer it up, offer it up, and there will be no pain of dis-appointment.  It won't be about the "little you"...so the "little you" will have no chance to get bent out of shape!

When we are involved with the senses, we must remember WE invested the senses with the power of enjoyment...not the other way around!  The ego is the Soul attached to the sense world...so we MUST break that attachment by OBSERVATION.  We must WATCH our egos as we eat, touch, smell, hear, see.  We are not these sense experiences...our egos are having them, but we are not the body or the ego!  Awareness is the only way to get out of the clutches of what the mind is doing to us via the senses!

In our leisure time, if we focus on reading the words of the Liberated Souls, the Masters of Themselves and Their Consciousness', if we watch films that inspire and uplift and remind us of the road HOME, if we associate with those that KNOW we have been sleeping and also are choosing to WAKE UP, we have a chance.

Life is a CHOICE.  It's how we occupy ourselves in the moments that create the outcome of the years!

What I do know is in that time between sleeping and waking I see the Truth.  That's why I rolled out of bed and came to you.  We must do whatever we can to keep ourselves AWAKE and to assist one another to STAY AWAKE.  The rest is NONSENSE. 

So today let us watch those minds!  Let us constantly bring them back to the Truth of our Freedom and our Divinity.  We deserve nothing less!  We are Children of God!

Loving you, k

P.S.  After I posted this, I chose to randomly select a piece of reading to occupy my mind during a mundane task.  I opened the first page and the following is what I read.  THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES!!

" If at this moment, you could completely calm your body, your thoughts, your emotions, you would instantly become aware of your true Self, the soul, and of your great body of the universe, throbbing with the joy of God....Isn't it strange, that the joy of God is there, yet you cannot feel it?  The reason you do not know His Bliss is that you are intoxicated with ego feeling (chitta)....

Your real nature is calmness.  You have put on a mask of restlessness: the agitated state of your consciousness resulting from the stimuli of feelings.  You are not that mask; you are pure, calm Spirit.  It is time you remember who you are: the blessed soul, a reflection of Spirit.  Take off the mask of feelings.  Face your Self.

Paramahansa Yogananda Self-Realization Magazine Fall 2001                                                                                 

God FIRST!

Afer midnight!

My daughter, Sundari, was shocked that I was writing the blog at this hour.  If I don't write it now..I won't write it.  I have noticed the ideas have their "right time" and if that is missed they seem to vanish.

We had just finished our huge Christmas feast...which we elected to have on the day after Christmas instead.  Too much was going on at Christmas...and that's another whole story.  Anyway, the plan was to watch a pair of videos tonight, one the sequel to the other.  I suggested we meditate first...as I felt I would be falling asleep if I waited til later.  No one was very supportive of my idea however.  Folks had a few things to do before movie time and I told Sundari to come get me from the training room...I chose to get at least a few minutes of meditation in before we all met to watch the films.  She told me she had decided to come down for a while too but had to go find something first.

Down in the training room, I noticed an incredible amount of energy and response from God.  I absolutely know that this was because I had thought of Him, and made the case for putting Him first.  His appreciative warm reaction was so familiarly Human!  I know that must sound strange...but this is truly how it was.  We were just having a lovefest down there and eventually both Sundari and also her boyfriend joined in.  The time kept slipping by and I was feeling so appreciative that it was turning out that I could stay longer and longer.

Eventually they both left and I noticed it  would not be that long until I had my full evening meditation complete.  I realized they would most likely start watching the films without me...and my meditation was feeling So much more appealing and fulfilling, I was O.K. with that.

When I finally joined the group they HAD begun to watch the first movie...but somehow there was a mix-up, and they had just decided to start it over again as I walked in.  I KNEW God had arranged that whole thing.  I had chosen Him...and He definitely was making sure I was not "penalized" for it!!  As I have said many times...when you have God's back...He ALWAYS has yours!

I reflected on how everything had turned out so well by making God FIRST.  By making my highest choice I was a positive influence on others making their highest choice.  The timing worked out for me to have my meditation when I knew it was the best time for me to meditate, God was so happy about me caring for Him He was incredibly demonstrative, and then He arranged the mix-up with the group so that I did not miss one second of the show!

Loving God...Loving you,  k

 

 

"Sitting"

Good Morning!

I choose to be very authentic with you today.  I choose to clarify what meditation means in my world.  Meditation as Kanta does it does not mean, "focused concentration on God" which is how my Teacher defines meditation.  It means, generally sitting in a chair for however many hours, catching glimpses of focused attention on God.  Alas, far, far from Concentration on anything, much less My Divine Beloved.

Some days are better than others, to be sure, but often my mind is but a scampering rabbit chasing itself around the tracks of my (un)consciousness.  I do love God so.  I do have the self-discipline EXTERNALLY to sit, or lay in bed, or elsewise weasel in so many "hours" of this faux meditation daily but I have yet had the self-DISCIPLINE to control my extremely wayward mind. 

I'm not even sure I am that much better than I was 38 years ago...although my butt is in the chair for a lot longer each day.  Of course this is a cause of great consternation to me...and thus the necessity of being absolutely upfront with you.  I DO Love God...and thus I must find a way to GET BACK HOMEWARD as the Beatles say. 

I spoke to one of our amazing grads following the all day med and she mentioned she was so drunk she could barely drive.  Wow...that sounded SO GOOD.  And the comparison to my own state made my heart sad. 

I often wonder how someone who loves God as much as I do (and even God knows that one thing to be true) has such an unruly mind.  Even writing these words brings tears to my eyes and a pain in my heart.  What to do but keep keeping on, one foot in front of the other, one day at a time.

I know this is why I cherish that part in Catholic Mass where we each say, "Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the Word and I shall be Healed."  or as I also say "Regard not my sins, but the faith in my Heart."

Believe me, I know it won't be through my faulty efforts or meager attempts that my Freedom will be found.  Yes...I do resonate with the Lord have Mercy on me refrain.  It will be by His Grace, Forgiveness, and Merciful Love alone that I will find my Freedom.  And the amazing, unstinting, ever-patient efforts and protection of my Teachers.  THANK GOD for God's GRACE and Their LOVE.

So there it is....I've got it off my chest.  Kanta makes the effort to commune with her Beloved so many hours a day...and most of that time her mind is chasing her tail...in the past. ;-) (One must always be careful not to instruct one's subconscious to keep up the faulty behavior!)

My newest ploy is to share my activities and thoughts throughout my day with my Beloved.  At least then I would be Keeping Company...if not experiencing the Absorption of true Meditation.  Even this is quite the challenge (in the past) but I must keep marching on.  "There is no other way to go....my Soul must keep Marching On."

I love you, honestly.  k

"Nothin' to get hung about"

Good evening!
I had a nice realization during my meditation today.  I got to that sweet place where I just feel GOOD...drawn inside, buzzing, GOOD!  I realized that I didn't have to give up that Connection when I arose from my meditation chair.  I could stay in CONTACT... keep some of me, my awareness, my energy focused on my innerplay with the ONE.  The Lord is there all the time, underneath everything going on externally, right?  So why can't I keep one ray of attention on My Contact with the ONE...and all that that brings into my life?

I noticed I was waaaay more mellow when I did this.  I was much smoother with whomever I was interacting, much more accepting of the inevitable curve balls life throws.  I also noticed when I forgot...and went back to my old choppy ways.  Life isn't near as much fun in that amnesia...more dramatic...but way more jagged too.

I keep thinking of those mellow types out there, chillin', and how much more amusement they get out of the circumstances that invariably arise.  I notice the many who aren't mellow as well...and I think of the old Beatles refrain, "Nothin' to get hung about."

Tell you what...let's make a deal.  Let's each choose to take the mantra "Nothin' to get hung about" and see if this isn't the best Christmas ever!  Now...I may be biting off more than I can chew..or I may be setting myself up for a very sweet time in a could-be sticky sitch.  We are driving up to Inshallah tomorrow in what is predicted to be a Giant Snowstorm.  If you allow your mind to wrap itself around the many what-ifs in that scenario, you may agree it's a PERFECT time for the "Nothin' to get hung about" mantra.

Hope some of you will join me in this new way of framing life's interesting moments.  We can laugh about it after Christmas.

Loving you always! k

Spending the day with God

Good Evening!

Yesterday had the expected result in that I felt much more Connected after spending all day meditating.  What wasn't expected was the overwhelming sadness and since of loss I experienced this morning.  The separation between myself and my Beloved was exquisitely painful.  I know this is just a perceived separation but that didn't prevent it from being deeply disturbing.  "What could be happening?" I wondered.  Why was I feeling this way?

I believe it was because I was aware of the gap between how I had been involving myself with God...and the intensity of my involvement yesterday.  I looked ahead at the possibility of a return to amnesia and distraction...and I experienced tremendous heartbreak.

I prayed deeply that God could keep me actively involved with Him...in Greater Awareness and Connection throughout today.  I recalled my Teacher had encouraged us to "spend Sundays with God" and this is exactly what I was hoping for.

I got a couple hours of meditation in, went to Mass, came home and told Dennis I was choosing to attend Temple as well.  Another hour with God, is how I was looking at it.

I spent a couple hours on chores and then went to the SRF Hermitage and Gardens.  Such joy and sweetness to see this Holy place outfitted in Holiday splendor.  I was also more sensitive to the spiritual vibrations pervading this oasis due to the all day meditation yesterday.

Returning home, it wasn't long before we had our hour meditation with those in our Source community who joined, followed by the December Source movie.  We watched the Nativity Story with a roomful of grads and circled to Silent Night at close.  Christ-filled, indeed!

All in all I did spend much of my day with my Beloved.  I felt grateful and uplifted.  If every day were like today, life would be a Holi-day indeed!  I must conceive of a way to make it so.  Lesser goals are entirely irrelevant.

Loving you! k

A day for God

Good Morning!
Today is the All-day Christmas Meditation at our temple.  We begin at 10 and end at 6, although there is a half hour break mid-way.  For some reason Den decided we must arrive an hour early to get the seats he desires and we had "words" about when to set the alarm.  All in all I put the thought in my head I wouldn't get enough rest and would be nodding during the meditation.  Sure enough, I awoke at 3AM and stayed awake for 3 hours.  Had plenty of time to consider things...

I realize I am something like a vampire.  At night, and immediately upon awakening, I realize my life's blood, my energy, my focus, my ALL is completely dependent on my Connection with my Beloved.  There is no distraction, no competition...it's a simple no-brainer.  During these sweet times I make my commitment to think of God all during my waking hours and revolve my life and activities around Him.

Then I arise.  How quickly the amnesia sets in.  Soon I am giving Him nary a thought...save the occasional asking for Guidance and Grace before eating.  From time to time, I may have a little conversation...but it's nothing like I outpictured in my "vampire" state, when God and God alone is all I crave.

As I lay there in the night all thought and feeling reduced down to the ONE essential....the ONE.  I just lay there chanting ONE, ONE, ONE or AUM, AUM, AUM or GOD, GOD, GOD and it was as clear as a bell that I was absorbed in the ONLY Reality!  All the petty desires and material investments and sensory activities and thought formations seemed so STUPID!  I had separated myself from my Bliss and now I am having a heckuva time finding my way out of this self-created cacophony to get back HOME.

One of our sweet grads is fond of reminding me that we are here for a purpose...we are supposed to be here...and we have our assignments to complete.  I KNOW that.  I also know when we WAKE UP and REMEMBER all of that will just go Poof!  Upon Awakening, St. Augustine, reputedly the greatest scholar in the Catholic Church, said, "All I have written appears to me as no greater than straw."
He also said, "My mind withdrew its thoughts from experience, extracting itself from the contradictory throng of sensuous images, that it might find out what that light was wherein it was bathed... And thus, with the flash of one hurried glance, it attained to the vision of That Which Is.

In today's daylight hours I will be sitting in meditation.  Surely, this day will be different.  Spending a whole day with my Beloved, with no other demand or distraction, I will for once keep my mind and acts true to my resolve.  I also remember that the effects of spending one whole day in this Consciousness spill over into the holi-days ahead.  Christ will once more take His righteous place in the center of my Christmas.

Hallelujah! k

The surreal Foo Dogs

Good Evening,

I had a surreal experience over the weekend and it definitely has the unbelievable hanging about it.  We were about to leave SF to travel up to a monastery nestled in mountains further north and east of the Bay Area.  I was being pulled to Chinatown and Dennis went along with my inclination.   We went into one of those shops with the truly amazing imports...giant mermaids and stunning candelabras, antiques galore, and furnishings for mansions.  One of the sales staff began throwing out hard-to-believe prices for really great furniture.  We didn't really need anything but still...Inshallah can always be upgraded.
Eventually the owner was working with us and presented these giant marble Foo Dogs...weighing a ton each (literally.)  He wrote out an enticing "package" deal as I was thinking No Way! 

I said I would ask my Guidance, however, sure that I would get the big NO!  I didn't. I got yes....Yes!, over and over.  "YES" on those Foo Dogs!!!  I couldn't believe it.   Maybe we are supposed to donate them to the ashram down the road or something was the only rationale I could come up with. 

We put all on the credit card and left the store somewhat stunned.  We drove up to the monastery and rechecking, I kept getting all was O.K.

Later on that day I got some confusing input, interiorly, but still kept my peace of mind.  I awoke in the middle of the night with an uncomfortable feeling around my heart.  "Strange", I thought.  If it's about spending an enormous amount of money unplanned...the pain should be in my 3rd chakra.  The solar plexus is the one that acts up when these kind of business/money/security issues arise.  I focused on my heart and began getting more information.

We were connected to the owner of the shop...but not in this lifetime.  He had been involved, negatively, in our last life together in Europe.  I was to go back and ask him to cancel the sale.  If he did, he would have balanced out some of what transpired in the past.  If he didn't, it meant no difference to us.  We had purchased the items to please God, and that is all that mattered.  If he took the sale back, GREAT.  If he didn't, every time I saw those things, especially the Foo Dogs, I would be reminded of the fact that I had acquired them to please God and they were a symbol of my unconditional love for Him.  We were also to present a generous gift to him regardless of whether or not he refunded our money.
I was weeping by this time and experiencing waves of happiness and peace.

We went back to the shop yesterday and the man received my truthful report calmly.  He told his manager to do what he could to refund our money.  I also offered him our gift, letting him know it was his regardless of his decision.  Apparently a trustee is involved in the collection of money and the manager doesn't know yet what will happen.  The manager asked me who told me to stop the sale and I just pointed heavenward.  He didn't get it so I then said "God".  It was quite a look he registered at that.  I heard him muttering to the owner, "She's a nice lady...I'll do my best." 

Looking at the Foo Dogs, standing as high as Den's chest...I knew it really didn't matter the outcome.  Win-win. 

Our bank account will get an influx of cash, or we will have these huge symbols of our love and trust in God...and of our willingness to please Him.  Both Den and I realized that nothing else really matters.  In big decisions or small, if our first question, our first intent, our first desire is to please God...we are happy.  We are safe.   We are content.

Loving you, with or without the Foo Dogs, k

Gratitude Leads to Beatitude

Good Morning!!

I know some of you are struggling and I asked God what any of us could do to assist.  I remembered something I realized recently.   It's my take on how Prayer works.  God is Good...and Only Love.  We don't have to pray to ask Him to do this or that....or make this or that happen.  Prayer is to remove the effects of our karma that is  blocking this or that happening, or creating messes in our lives.  Prayer dissolves the obstacles of delusion that stand in our way...or in the way of those dear to us.  So, first, we must pray for those having a difficult time in the Fraud world.  At the same time, we must outpicture this Healing Light coming to them...as our thought is creative...prayer really works!!

Next, suggest to them to concentrate/focus on what IS good in their lives.  The attitude of gratitude leads to beatitude!  I did this myself this morning.  I am so grateful for my husband, my daughter, my daughter's father, my deepest and closest friends in my life.  Each of these dear ones are on my spiritual path and dedicated to it.  I am grateful for my work with Source....involved in conduiting the Great Ones' energy to Wake people up to their True Life Purpose: Realization of their ONENESS with God.  Right up my alley!  With this work comes my association with all of you...I am so grateful to interact with a Community of authentic, loving, supportive souls committed to the most important Goal of Life!  I am grateful for my little fuzzy dog Taj who has the perfect temperament for the "work" he does for Source.

I am grateful to live in Encinitas, a community with many spiritual seekers and folks Conscious of Highest Choice in the health of body, mind, and soul.  I am also grateful to live by the blessed ocean, which reminds me of the Cosmic Sea of Love, and to have Inshallah in the mountains in which I can retreat in Darkness.

Most of all, I am grateful I love God...and that I KNOW God loves me.  If every other thing were taken away, I would still be content.  God and God Alone is the One Essential...from Him all these other wonderful gifts flow.  In Him, I have all the Love there is!

Practice Gratitude and the Fraud world won't be able to bring you down.  Your ego and it's miserable train of thought will be stopped in it's tracks.  Any time you start worrying, or begin to bring yourself down, STOP!!  Then and there start listing the many wonderful things for which you are grateful.  The Power and Presence of Love far overshadows the power of fear and lack.  We draw what we focus on....Focus on GOOD.  Focus on GOD!

Loving you gratefully, k